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Wednesday, May 9, 2006 - 9:45 p.m.

Let us start off by saying thanks again for all of your encouraging comments. Today, Ron was able to communicate with his nurse by opening and closing his mouth for "yes" and "no". They are continuing to give his pain medications to keep him comfortable.

Dear Readers,

Hi, My name is Selina4me and this is my first time ever having an online journal!

For starters, I would like to say that we all have bumps in the road with our "best" friends but in the end what is so "best" about them when they turn their back on you and suddenly not be your friend over some little thing like something you said (jokingly)that may have been insulting. It is the exact same way for me and my so called "friends". Its like a roller-coaster that will never stop or an axe that keeps tearing into your heart! I relize that I'm getting a little dramatic but it hurts! I am only being their friend because I don't want to get bullied.When I'm nottheir friend I do bad in school but when I am I do almost perfect! I know it is really stupid but this is how I deal with it! I can't change it!

Keep tunning into my online journal and good luck! -Selina4me

well nothin mutch today exsept i found out that i will be checked for scooliostists tomarrow bye

Hey Ron,

Sorry to hear you're having a bad time, I'll say a prayer for you. Remember that it's God who does the healing, the doctors only collect the fees. I think about the English class we had together with that nutbag Lester all the time and still laugh. Glad you're improving.

God Bless

Bryan Lee

Dear Journal

Well today is going better than yesturday, just because most of my high school is gone to a track meet. So there is only like 20 kids here in high school today. I still am depressed though..I just dont know how much longer I can handle them anymore. I am so tired of there shit. I hate it. I wish I could just disappear. I would be happier that way. I know that after I move fighting with kids in school will be tougher because there is more people there. But living in this small town like I do now is worse because if one person in the school is mad at you, the rest of the school is mad. I am not even joking, thats how it is. Its not just that I hate the kids here, but they hate me to...because i m fat and not athelitc, nor close to being smart. I try to get along with everyone, but it doesnt work, because they just annoy me about how they talk behind there "best friends" backs the way they do. I hate that....i would never talk shit about my best friend. I just couldnt. Well if you have any advice that you can share, I am more then willing to try it. I just want to know how i could start to like them and get them to like me too! Court